So, flash back to a month ago. It was in the afternoon and I was on my laptop, and then I received this message from mr. X (NOTE: no names will be disclosed in this post)
"My dear Chloe, there was ever a day where I gaze by without thinking of you. The smile on your face brings about a calm saintly serenity and the soft feel of your touch melts my inner soul. Every time I think of you, I can't sleep as reality for me is already a dream. I just want you to know, love is just like a war... easy to start and hard to end. I love you. All those times in choir, I have always looked at you. Will you be my princess?"
Now, I have a habit that I admit. When I read the review of the message, I will somewhat get a certain kind of feel, and with that feel I decide whether or not I'm going to read through it. Now, when I received this text, I felt like just deleting it. But because I was kind of pissed off, I skimmed through the text and just derived the bottom line.
And although I don't like him, but the thing is that, to reject someone, it's never a nice feeling. So with whatever good feeling I have, I replied.
"Thank you for your feelings. But I'm sorry. I can't accept it. I, already have somebody. I'm sorry."
and guess what he replied?
"Btw so sorry!! This is a copy n pasted truth or dare dare messae. Was forced to send out and see your replies. So sorry... had to do it..."
When I read that, I was like super duper shocked. I stun for awhile and just replied
"Okay. Can"
Now, after awhile, when everything has FINALLY registered, I realized what he did and I honestly almost flared up. Now thinking back, he should be glad I held back. If I was this calm and composed, he will already have gotten a tongue lashing (which he did get, but that's later down). So after awhile, AAA texted me and was like asking if she could ask me something, and I was like "Sure! Ask away." and she was like telling me that recently, XXX has been constantly sending her text messages asking her if I am angry with him. And then just today, he sent a super weird message. And so when I asked her to send me the message, guess what? Bingo! Its the exact same message.
Well, for one, it's a relief. That means it really IS just a prank. However, that showed alot of him. And many of the things that were revealed, I seriously dislike it.
I know this is just for 'fun' and many people will say that I'm over-reacting. But if you don't talk about anything and just put yourself in my shoes, then we will see what you say okay? Now the first thing that upset me was the fact that he pulled a prank on my feelings. I mean, playing a trick on someone saying that today is a holiday when there is still school is acceptable. But, when it comes to other people's feelings, do you really think its so fun to play afool with it? I mean take it this way, what happen if a girl comes to you and say "Hey, XXX, I like you" and than after that turn around and say "Nah, I'm just kidding. Its a joke! HAHA! I pranked you!" How the hell would you feel. Can you still smile and say "Well, its all for the fun of it. So yeah, sure". No seriously. Are you really that sure you will react that way?
Secondly, they did not even think about how the girls would feel. They just went ahead and do it. What happen if a girl really like you, mr XXX and she said yes and confessed. What are you then going to do? Have you ever considered how everything will turn out if this happens? Can you imagine how hurt and embarrassed the girl will be. Don't ever say that it won't happen to me. Always remember Murphey's Law:
"Anything that might go wrong, WILL go wrong."
Another thing that bothers me is the lack of backbone. Now, many will say that I'm judging too fast. But you know what, I don't give a hoot. This is what we call 'impression'. Impressions need not be accurate, but impressions will make a world of a difference. And from the way he act in this scenario, the thing that come off to me is that he is a very weak person that cannot stand by his ideals. Either that, or he is just very screwed up. My point is revolved around this that in life, everybody is given a choice. YES, this might jolly well be a dare, but he could still choose to send it or not. Even when somebody is holding you at gunpoint threatening to give up all your money, you still have a choice whether or not to give up your cash or not. This is called free will, and this is the only thing that can separate us humans from animals. So using the reason that its a dare its just super cowardly and just shows that you cannot stand up for your own ideals. Like what many always say,
"We can understand your plight, but that doesn't mean that what you did was acceptable"
Sure, I can understand where XXX is coming from, but that doesn't mean that I NEED to accept it. No. No stinking way. After this, I have entirely no idea if I can trust him. I mean come on, he had the audacity to prank my feelings when we aren't even close. Heck! Even my best guy friend don't even pull a prank on my feelings, how dare he do it? Moral is, I can't trust somebody that plays on my feelings, regardless or not whether he's being forced to or not.
And to those who might think that I'm too harsh, will let me share with you an English idiom:
"As you make your bed, so must you lie on it"
If you have no idea what it means, it just simply means that you have to suffer the consequences of what you do. In other words, if you have the guts to make that move, you better have the guts to take up the backlash and the consequences of it. And to whether or not I'm over-reacting or not, you have no rights to say, cause different people have different tolerant levels. Do not your use your standards and tolerance and impose it on me.
Another thing was that we realized that XXX only sent this message to me and AAA and never send it to another of our friend who he also have her number. And our conclusion was simple. We meant too little compared to our other friend that to him, what we think about him does not matter. Hence, he can do such a thing. Because he believe that the impact of it would be smaller if he told us, therefore he told us. I'm too lazy to explain the entire theory now... Zzz
Alot of other things also annoyed me, but this was the starting point of everything..
Well, that's all for this post! One outstanding post once again off the list! KEKE! Well, with this, I shall bid you farewell!
Goodnights! <3
CHLOE
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