時間の砂

Finally! Finally! Finally!

Not wanting to seem TOO over-the-top happy. But with all honesty, I am very glad that this is all over!

:D

So today we had a final run through and also today was the day of "truth" if you can say it this way. Hahaha. Basically, today was the performance. And if you not know, it's the collab we have with MV.

I don't think it's a secret, but I kinda disliked the idea of the collaboration.

Well mainly, it was due to the way they treated us and all. It was pretty frustrating how they would continuously change stuffs and all. Also their punctuality also had a great problem. And they weren't exactly... You know? Tactful? But oh well.

Despite that. Today, it was hard to wish that their concert would not be successful. Rather, I really wished that the concert would be well received.

It's not because I feel that because we worked THAT hard and suffered THAY much therefore it is only right for them to succeed. But it's because other then their work ethics, a great majority of them ARE talented.

And to be fair to them, this is their first time doing such collaborations. So it's kind of acceptable for them to be unsure on how to handle it? But still the punctuality. I'm not sure how to explain this. But in the future, if they have a concert, would I attend?

If I was to go as an audience, I wouldn't mind at all.

But if it was to be as a performer, I would really need to think twice.

Overall, the concert (or at least the first half) was pretty good with the exceptions of there being too much guitar solos and also that one of the singers can't pull off a certain style but still die-die insist on using it. #sigh

That being said, good job MV! You guys worked hard and deserved the success. All the best for your futures endeavors.

xoxo
CHLOÉ

Pain

What's pain? Pain is a feeling of hurt? Pain is a feeling where you feel that your heart is crushed and can no longer be revived. Pain is the feeling when you lose your reason to smile.

Pain comes when you are singing your lungs out and still can't be heard.

Pain comes when you see the committee trying their best to make the working environment better for us and feeling bad because of the problems that is not within their control.

What are we fighting for?
What's the point?

The video just illustrates what we are on the stage.

Nothing.

With neither visual impact nor lighting impact nor audio impact. What are we? What's our purpose on that stage? To be their puppet? Or a prop to enhance their performance? Or are we suppose to be a covering for their weak vocals? Or are we suppose to provide notes for those who aren't even clear of their own notes?

At the end of the day, when this entire saga is over. What will they gain?
A boasting-piece.

And at the end of the day, when this entire saga is over. What will we attain?

Nothing.

What's pain?
Pain is knowing that you gave your very all, and still nothing changes.

Let's just get this over and done with.
CHLOÉ

You know what don't match?

Rock concert and a Backing Choir.

#facepalms

約束

I promise that I will not leave because of disappointment. Because I joint without an expectation for anything. If I were to leave, I will leave because I lost passion.

For I joint because of passion and nothing else.

13 February 2013

I was going through my Notes and I realized that I had this post on 13 February. And only now do I realize that it was 'written' on the day before Valentine's Day! Hahaha!

Anyway, this was the post

良き時も悪き時も、病める時も　健やかなる時も、死が二人を分かつまで私たちはずーっとケンカすることを違います

And what it is, is actually the wedding vow in Japanese. I got this from the manga Hapi Mari (which I never continued cause it became too dull. Well, since its a wedding vow, needless to say, there was a wedding scene. Yeah.

Hahaha. Okay there's no significance. I just find it cute that I made that note 1 day before Valentine's Day ^^

Long time no post? Just random~

Has been kinda long since my last post eh? Lazy me has indeed been lazy. Welll... I'm only lazy to blog often. But in reality I have had been pretty busy.

Semester just ended ~a week back. That means I'm free for ~2months and less. I'm one week into my holiday and I gotta say that I'm still freaking tired. Why? Cause I'm still busy! HAHAHA! But not as busy and stress as when I was during project submission week and exam week, but still quite stress. And why was that so? It was because I was busy rushing out editing of my friend's fanfiction, in which I am the co-author. So even though I don't 'ship' this fandom, I will still promote it.

It's a pretty simple storyline I must say. It isn't complicated. Have very little simple relationship chart I must say. So in summary, this story is about Taeyeon, who 'attempts suicide' after being unable to get over Tiffany's departure. This event results in her meeting a psychiatrist, Yuri, who has a romantic partner called Jessica. Unbeknownst to Taeyeon, Yuri is still in constant contact with Tiffany. In a twist of events, Tiffany will return to Korea. Why, and how? There's only one way to find out. And that's to read the fanfiction itself! And here's the URL~

http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/347447/complete-sequel-to-if-angst-taeny-yulsic

Do check it out. And if you like it (and have an AFF account.) remember to subscribe and comment and up vote! It will mean so much to me and the main author.

Hahaha. Yes, that's right. In this story I'm simply a co-author. But I do have my own fanfictions. But I suspect that I will be pretty dead? Since I'm not so much of a fanfiction kind of author. I mean I started off writing fanfiction. But I've passed that phase. Now I'm more of writing original stories. And, I'm not a kpop lover. So even if I was to post fanfictions, it wouldn't be a kpop one. I mean why I'm posting kpop related now is because this is a (part of a) project I'm working on.

I've mentioned it a gazillion time to my main writer that to me, all the SNSD members are just another character that I can injure and kill. I have no attachment towards them. (Hence meaning that once this is over, I'm still not a SONE.)

Personally, I don't believe in being too emotional with a character and frown upon it. As an author, a character is just a character. It is to aid the development of the story. There should be no qualms of hurting the character. Or even killing it. Rather, an author should be emotionally connected with the character. A good author must be able to feel what the character is feeling. And although some claim that they do feel what their characters are feeling, however from the way they describe the character's thought and actions, you can tell that they really don't.

Anyway! My feelings about being a co-writer will be put up some other time. I'm a little bitter sweet about this role of a co-author. And seriously is considering if I should still continue. But that's for another post.

Anyway! Church stuff, did I mention? That this year's children's camp, I the worship leader. Hahaha. Yeah. Pressure is definite. Just hope that I can juggle all this stuff properly.

Also, Good Friday skit, I'm a tree (claps). Are there any reservations? Frankly, not really. But! No reservations doesn't mean no complain. HAHAHA!

Sometimes you know what piss me off so much? When people say something and don't consider how difficult doing it actually is. I think low standard of quality is a very poor excuse.

Anyway, my pinky is getting numb! ):

I will update some other time! Till then! (:

xoxo
CHLOÉ