You always catch my eyes. Somehow or rather. (: it was as though you were special, unique. Or perhaps cause your name just pop out to me. Either way, to me you stand out (:
To tell you the truth, you kinda make me smile. :B
However, all good things MUST come to an end (this saying sounds wrong in this situation) and sadly, today is the last day I will see you. So to my eye candy for half a semester; I wish you well and all the best! (:
As for the gaze, I will keep it prisoner for as long as I remember your name (:
:')
CHLOÉ
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Thursday, February 21, 2013
JOHN or not. It makes no difference. Cause John is not John. And you aren't who I thought I know.
TJM,
You are really the best. I've only known you for 10+ months and I already hate you as much as those who I've known since I was born.
You really are something.
You are really the best. I've only known you for 10+ months and I already hate you as much as those who I've known since I was born.
You really are something.
I will say I'm pissed.
I worked so hard to get good grades, now thanks to your screwed up priorities and lack in urgency, my grades are affected too.
I hate you so much. I really hate you.
You have a back up route if your poly route fail, but I don't. You may have money to enter university, but I don't. I'm not like you rich-ass who can travel whenever I want. I'm not like you who can enter university via Alevels. I only have one shot.
3.6 GPA, I worked hard for it. My MST results are the fruits of my hardwork. It was suppose to help me cushion the fall of grades during Main Exam. Not for you to pull it down for the project.
I hate you.
There's no happy memories with you. All you have me were sourness. I hate you. I hate you so much.
I hate you so much. I really hate you.
You have a back up route if your poly route fail, but I don't. You may have money to enter university, but I don't. I'm not like you rich-ass who can travel whenever I want. I'm not like you who can enter university via Alevels. I only have one shot.
3.6 GPA, I worked hard for it. My MST results are the fruits of my hardwork. It was suppose to help me cushion the fall of grades during Main Exam. Not for you to pull it down for the project.
I hate you.
There's no happy memories with you. All you have me were sourness. I hate you. I hate you so much.
Friday, February 8, 2013
Problem? Yes. I do have one. And it's regarding you.
This few weeks, I have been very snappy. And there is a reason behind it. The reason is someone over here is really pushing my limits and patience. Like every single day. I'm like banging my head on the table wishing for him to just shut up and stop his whining. It's that annoying.
And it's like I time and time again think what's the issue?
After little figuring I figured out the problem.
The problem is that it's always me.
I'm always me. I'm over reacting. I'm too stressed. I'm sarcastic. I'm too serious. I'm too what? It's ALWAYS my fault. Like whenever there is a disagreement, it automatically becomes my fault and by him saying that he is at fault is like just to appease me. But sometimes it isn't so right?!
Like for example, he (which I shall conveniently call Mr. J) says on Wednesday that its a bad day for him and he don't want to stay back. So I'm like okay. Then you take your job home and do it. Thursday we meet then we rehearse. He say okay, we are all agreeable so after we discussed everything and settled who's doing what, he left while the rest of us 4 stayed behind to practice. The next day (Thursday), he ① came late. It's okay. Fine. ② after he reach, he took out his laptop and just did his own stuff! Okay fine. When I finally ask if we can start to practice abit before another member come, he say that he need to do up his part. And I'm like WTS? Aren't you suppose to do it already? Like last night? And btw, the presentation is on Friday.
And he is like "oh it's very fast." But you see, the thing is not whether its fast or not. You said that you would get it done by last night. Not today! And it's not like I didn't send you the report or what! I sent you the report and the PowerPoint. So why can't you do it?
It's already very frustrating that you did not read the report when I sent your a gazillion time. Did not bother to even look at the PowerPoint. Now this. And when I bring it up, he ask me to relax. I'm already so pissed off. I have been giving in to him time again and again and again. And every time he just continue and continue and continue. And it's just so annoying. He never gets that he is in the wrong. Everything is just our fault. We are over reacting and everything.
I really can't stand it. It's not like I'm unreasonable and never give you any lee way. You want to swim. Okay, I don't make noise. You say we are pushing you too hard, okay. I try to understand. But when it comes to serious matters, you are NEVER serious. And you aren't even aware of it. And when we tell you to buck up? What happen. Everything automatically becomes my fault. And that I'm over reacting and all.
But am I really over reacting? Can you just reflect on your work behavior from this project alone. Have I not been giving you lee way. When I asked you to do the script and you did not do it. Did I make a humongous fuss out of it? No. When I heard your excuse, I just asked you if you would rather change. You said yes, I changed with you. Am I being unreasonable? Am I over reacting? You need to stop thinking each day as it is, and start thinking of all the things you did. It's really really getting on my nerves.
Secondly, I just don't get him. Really really don't get him. If you want to know your marks, just walk up to the teacher and ASK. Open your bloody golden mouth and ASK. Is it that hard? Aren't you so proud of your verbal abilities? If you are. Then go and ask the teacher what are the marks for your individual components instead of coming and asking us for your marks. I can't even remember my own marks how the hell do you want me to remember your bloody marks? It's just so annoying! And, you got an A, congrats. But can't you be more sensitive to those who did not get an A. How do you think they will feel with you keep on mentioning about how "you want to know how much more you must score to get an A"? If I who got an A already feels irritated how about someone who got a B+? They are already super upset that they got a B+ and now they must hear you whine and complain that you can't remember your other test mark that was also an A? Wow. It must be so comforting. *clapsclapsclaps.
Finally, I get that you most likely aren't close to your family and perhaps don't give much a damn about them. But if that is somebody's priority and is something that holds great importance can't you just show a bit of respect? Like for example even though I don't like kpop, do I go to all my kpop friends and insult it? Or when they are complaining to me about how this group is being an ass to their bias do I go and rub salt on their wound? No. I just shut up and nod even though I really don't care if he is bashing her. But out of respect for my friend I just listen to her talk. Why can't you do the same? Sometimes it just feel as though you don't even respect me.
Now I really can't stand it. My agitation towards him is really affecting me. I'm like super fiery now. And I know it. Like the rest of the clique don't really affect me, but its always him that get me very agitated.
He will most likely attribute it to me over reacting. Like duh. Now I don't even feel a need to explain to him. Cause after all, to him I'm always over reacting.
So do I have a problem with you?
NO. I don't. But I have a major one with him.
And it's like I time and time again think what's the issue?
After little figuring I figured out the problem.
The problem is that it's always me.
I'm always me. I'm over reacting. I'm too stressed. I'm sarcastic. I'm too serious. I'm too what? It's ALWAYS my fault. Like whenever there is a disagreement, it automatically becomes my fault and by him saying that he is at fault is like just to appease me. But sometimes it isn't so right?!
Like for example, he (which I shall conveniently call Mr. J) says on Wednesday that its a bad day for him and he don't want to stay back. So I'm like okay. Then you take your job home and do it. Thursday we meet then we rehearse. He say okay, we are all agreeable so after we discussed everything and settled who's doing what, he left while the rest of us 4 stayed behind to practice. The next day (Thursday), he ① came late. It's okay. Fine. ② after he reach, he took out his laptop and just did his own stuff! Okay fine. When I finally ask if we can start to practice abit before another member come, he say that he need to do up his part. And I'm like WTS? Aren't you suppose to do it already? Like last night? And btw, the presentation is on Friday.
And he is like "oh it's very fast." But you see, the thing is not whether its fast or not. You said that you would get it done by last night. Not today! And it's not like I didn't send you the report or what! I sent you the report and the PowerPoint. So why can't you do it?
It's already very frustrating that you did not read the report when I sent your a gazillion time. Did not bother to even look at the PowerPoint. Now this. And when I bring it up, he ask me to relax. I'm already so pissed off. I have been giving in to him time again and again and again. And every time he just continue and continue and continue. And it's just so annoying. He never gets that he is in the wrong. Everything is just our fault. We are over reacting and everything.
I really can't stand it. It's not like I'm unreasonable and never give you any lee way. You want to swim. Okay, I don't make noise. You say we are pushing you too hard, okay. I try to understand. But when it comes to serious matters, you are NEVER serious. And you aren't even aware of it. And when we tell you to buck up? What happen. Everything automatically becomes my fault. And that I'm over reacting and all.
But am I really over reacting? Can you just reflect on your work behavior from this project alone. Have I not been giving you lee way. When I asked you to do the script and you did not do it. Did I make a humongous fuss out of it? No. When I heard your excuse, I just asked you if you would rather change. You said yes, I changed with you. Am I being unreasonable? Am I over reacting? You need to stop thinking each day as it is, and start thinking of all the things you did. It's really really getting on my nerves.
Secondly, I just don't get him. Really really don't get him. If you want to know your marks, just walk up to the teacher and ASK. Open your bloody golden mouth and ASK. Is it that hard? Aren't you so proud of your verbal abilities? If you are. Then go and ask the teacher what are the marks for your individual components instead of coming and asking us for your marks. I can't even remember my own marks how the hell do you want me to remember your bloody marks? It's just so annoying! And, you got an A, congrats. But can't you be more sensitive to those who did not get an A. How do you think they will feel with you keep on mentioning about how "you want to know how much more you must score to get an A"? If I who got an A already feels irritated how about someone who got a B+? They are already super upset that they got a B+ and now they must hear you whine and complain that you can't remember your other test mark that was also an A? Wow. It must be so comforting. *clapsclapsclaps.
Finally, I get that you most likely aren't close to your family and perhaps don't give much a damn about them. But if that is somebody's priority and is something that holds great importance can't you just show a bit of respect? Like for example even though I don't like kpop, do I go to all my kpop friends and insult it? Or when they are complaining to me about how this group is being an ass to their bias do I go and rub salt on their wound? No. I just shut up and nod even though I really don't care if he is bashing her. But out of respect for my friend I just listen to her talk. Why can't you do the same? Sometimes it just feel as though you don't even respect me.
Now I really can't stand it. My agitation towards him is really affecting me. I'm like super fiery now. And I know it. Like the rest of the clique don't really affect me, but its always him that get me very agitated.
He will most likely attribute it to me over reacting. Like duh. Now I don't even feel a need to explain to him. Cause after all, to him I'm always over reacting.
So do I have a problem with you?
NO. I don't. But I have a major one with him.
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